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Name: Verena
Birthday: 8/2/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: Fave Bands: The Beatles, L'Arc~en~Ciel.
Instruments: Piano, marimba/vibes, drums, bass.
i listen to music and watch tv... i don't really do anything else, haha :)
Expertise: jack of all trades, master of none *_*
Occupation: Student
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| just finished the anatomy final. i probably didn't do all that well, but im not expecting to. i got a 79 on the midterm. between the midterm and the final, the higher score counts for 2/3's of the grade anyway. so even if i did horribly on the final, i'll still pull a C. u'll probably never hear me say this about any other class in my lifetime, but i honestly don't care what grade i get in this class, as long as i pass. i HATE anatomy >_< watever i learned is all in the short-term memory anyway, so the entire quarter was a waste of time. and it doesn't matter that i didn't learn anything, because i'll never need this information again in my life. so really.... waste of time :P
next up is my pharm chem final, which i just found out was cumulative!!!! ooops, better start studying, hahahaha. luckily, with anatomy out of the way, im a much happier camper :)
i dled all the beatles' movies, and they are awesome. im falling in love all over again, hehe :D but OOPS. gotta study!!!!! hehehe
HEY BULLDOG!!!! | | |
| so there is just over a week left of school, and i totally can't wait for it to end!!! in 12 days, i will be back with my family :D and, of course, great america with jenn the day after finals!! hehehehe
but in the meantime, im kinda screwed. mostly my own fault, but it's still a bad situation to be in. i basically ditched all of anatomy class since the midterm... didn't go to a single lecture OR lab. i HATE that f*cking lab, but i think i mentioned that before... lol. i thought i was like the worst student EVAR for ditching all that anatomy, but i just found out today that i was not the only one!!! hahaha. so im joining my fellow delinquents tomorrow in the lab, i might even go sunday on my own :( booooooo.
aside from anatomy, i've actually been ditching a lot of classes, but those aren't really as important. (im pretty confident in my ability to cram half a quarter's worth of chemistry in one night... even if it does get me a B. although an A would be a pleasant surprise). the class im most worried about is genetics, especially since i did so incredibly badly on the midterm (but then again, our entire class did equally bad). i just hope i can at least pull the grade up a little :/ it probably would be easier to pull up the genetics grade if i had gone to any genetics lectures since the midterm.... my bad. HAHahahahaha. *_*
i probably should be a lot more worried about grades than i am, but since i came up here, my mood can range from depressed, to lazy, to sleepy.... and none of those are really good study moods *_* at least when i go out with friends, im happy. and the night before a test, my mood switches to completely stressed, which is how i get studying done :D lol. but if i want to get to med school after pharm school, i should seriously pick up the grades next year. no more B's!!
which brings me to the whole issue of whether or not i even want to go to med school... is it too cliche to say that i feel pressure from the family to do it? but even if im pressured to do it, at least 25% of that pressure is coming from myself. maybe im just psycho, but just because i've always had the expectation that i would go to med school, ever since i was 3, im kind of pressuring myself to go to med school. even tho im not even sure if i WANT to go, i feel pressure to go. and there's also that fact that NOT going to med school for 2 years made me horribly depressed. AAAAAgh. im so torn. and i know that i have a long time to think about it, but having this issue nagging over my head just sucks, and i wish i had a decision made for me. boo :(
ummmmm so yeah. time to end on a happy note! i just watched the k-drama 'full house' and it was SOooooo good!!! hahahahahaha. yes, i am behind the times. but still. so good!! :D now i just need to find something else to watch, that is posted on youtube. lol...
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| i seriously hope that informatics midterm went ok D: i totally blanked on wat kind of mutation pku was... and why the hell was each of the pku questions 9 points, when the other (more important) questions were like 3 points??? gaaaaay. actually, other than the pku section, and 1 or 2 multiple choice questions, i was pretty confident. of course, since the pku questions were so heavily weighted, im assuming that means a B. -_-" damn!! i am seriously getting more and more average as i get older. when i was 14, my single night of studying before the exam would have gotten me an A for sure :( aaaaaahhhhh, see, this is the problem with being one of the smart kids when you're little. when u grow up, u can't function cuz even tho ur workload got more difficult, ur laziness stays the same!! if i'm pulling B's this year, i wonder how i'll be next year? bleh... if i can pull an A in chemistry, my mind will be put to ease (at least a little bit).
ummm in other news, I MISS MY HOME. i wanna go back and be with my familyyyyyyyyy. but that has to wait for THREE MORE WEEKS ;_; i actually miss having my mom stand over my shoulder and nag at me. yup, that sounds mighty good right about now.... damn, im going nuts *_* and i feel like i haven't seen my cousins in forever!!!! well, i kinda haven't seen them in forever. but im feeling out of the loop, out of the family, like im the one who's gone away... well, i kind of am, but still!!! i don't wanna be the outsider :( it's my family!!!! my parents, my brother, my cousins, my aunts and uncles, my grampa.... i miss everybody :( yeah i have friends here, but u know, family is family, and im lonely :(
o yeah and the weather up here sucks. (of course).
ummm wat else... im making a pathetic attempt to plan an end of the school year trip to either 6 flags or great america after the quarter is over :D i have a couple days of nothing between the end of finals and when my family comes to pick me up... too bad i don't know which is the better park!! i figure i'll let whoever comes with me decide where to go. lol. i hope it works out, cuz i haven't been to an amusement park since... omg almost a year!! lol. southern california has spoiled me.... | | |
| so this weekend was the integrative medicine forum. i do think some of that stuff is kinda cool. i mean, of course a massage will make u feel great and happy. of course we like to use those old home remedies that have been passed down the generations, even if we're not totally sure that they work. we like it. and of course, diet and exercise are the key to being healthy. im not gonna argue in favor of pills, pills, and more pills as the cure for everything. if u live a healthy life, stay active, keep stress down, eat foods that are good for you... you'll save yourself from a lot of sickness. honestly, i do hate the pharmaceutical companies, the way they convince people of their need for medication, their marketing of drugs, and their way of slightly modifying drugs to extend their patents (allowing them to charge gross amounts of money, with giant profit margins, not spent on research but on more marketing). that being said, i am still a total skeptic!! what is the first thing u should do when somebody tells u something? DON'T BELIEVE THEM!!! at least, not without evidence. if u want me to believe something, u better prove it to me.
so one of the keynote speakers today was basically a fast-talking scam artist, dropping tons of chemical names trying to sound like she knew so much. basically, she was there to push her herbs, bio-identical hormones, and homeopathic remedies. it was actually kind of funny, because just yesterday, i attended a workshop where our prof had basically identified all of what this lady was pushing as a scam!! there is a lot of good pharmaceutical compounding out there, but there is also a lot of bad and dishonest compounding too. when you read something in a peer-reviewed journal for compounding, how much does "peer-reviewed" mean when your peers are eager to push their drugs? so, it's time for some mythbusting...
what is a homeopathic remedy? it's water. u take a chemical, dilute it until it's NOT THERE ANYMORE, and then sell it. supposedly, the structure of the water is magically changed, and it now has a therapeutic effect. BULL SHIT. water is water. if you're gonna claim therapeutic effect, show me an active ingredient. water does lots of things for the body, but this is like back in the 1800's when they used to claim totally ridiculous effects for random "drugs." why don't i get a bottle of costco water and market it as an anti-depressant, anti-cholesterol, anti-diabetic, contraceptive viagra replacement? i dare u to prove i'm wrong. with the logic of the homeopathy people, anything and everything is possible! sure they'll point to "studies" that say that their products work. i can also point to a study showing that PLACEBO drugs work. when they compare their product to a placebo, it means nothing. it's placebo vs. placebo. in other words: BULL SHIT.
what about herbs, or bio-identical hormones? what i wanna know is, where did this attitude come from that anything from nature is good, while anything synthesized in a lab is bad?? a molecule is a molecule. where that molecule came from has nothing to do with how that molecule will behave. is a molecule of salicylic acid from a plant any different from a molecule of salicylic acid made in a lab? of course not!!! IT'S THE SAME MOLECULE!!!! there's nothing wrong if a person would rather buy the herb product than the synthesized product, just personal preference, but don't tell me a lie by saying that they're different. the ACTIVE INGREDIENT, the part that MATTERS, is the SAME.
same thing goes for the bio-identical hormones. of course any greedy and/or ignorant compounding pharmacist would HATE to be challenged about their bio-identical hormones. that's where most of them get the majority of their money from! but seriously, don't tell me a lie and say that two identical molecules are different. ALSO, this speaker lady today was going on about how if u modify a natural molecule, it can only lead to bad things in the body. BULL SHIT!!!! why do we use pro-drugs? for lots of reasons! the point is that once they're in the body, but pro-drug will be modified by your *NATURAL* enzymes, and turn into the active drug. don't lie to me and tell me that this active drug is any different from the expensive *bio-identical* hormone that you're selling me. and where the hell is your evidence to prove the efficacy of these expensive bio-identicals?? in the land of BULL SHIT, that's where.
this lady today, she was tossing out big long chemical names right and left, trying to work the crowd in her favor. you know who else confuses you, seems likeable, and then takes your money? SCAM ARTISTS. at the end, she talked a bit about how the pharmaceutical companies try to take advantage of us and are only out for money. well, lady, what do u think you're selling? don't lie to me and tell me that your fast-talking marketing is any different from the others. you're just as much out there to get my money as they are. well, there might be one difference... they're doing it out of greed, but you might just be doing it out of stupidity. tell me which is worse...
seriously, when me and katie called this lady on her scams.... that felt totally awesome :D katie raised her hand first, and called the lady on the whole hormone thing. she immediately got super-defensive, and was practically yelling at katie in response. then i got in on it, and had quite a little argument XD my favorite part was when i asked her if she believed in prodrugs at all: she said yes, then immediately proceeded to contradict herself :D then katie got back in, and much fun was had. even though i was TOTALLY annoyed at the lady's outright scamming, it felt good to be able to talk back. i could tell that we annoyed a few of the ppl the audience who were believers (o well, who cares, hahahah). but afterwards, we also got complimented by quite a few ppl. so yeah... felt TOTALLY awesome :D
i don't understand people's attitudes these days. people seem to want to ignore academica in favor of alternative, natural things. "they're just a bunch of suits in some university somewhere trying to tell me what to do!!" well, DUH. and we SHOULD get to tell you what to do. it's our JOB, and we STUDY for it. u wouldn't ask an amish man to fix ur car, right? ppl need to be qualified to say the things that they say. hence, THE UNIVERSITY FOLK ARE SUPPOSED TO TELL YOU WHAT TO DO!!!!!!!
*end angry rant here* | | |
| NHI!!!!! i know u had ur prom!!! we went out the same nite, hehehe. im gonna call u this week, u better talk!!! lol :)
so saturday was the nite that i finally got my "prom"!! hahaha. and only a year late ;) well, ok, it was actually the associated students spring formal. but all the girls were comparing it to prom!! haha. i was stupid enough to not charge the batteries in my camera, so I didn't get any pictures on my own camera... luckily, i have lots of friends with cameras, and so i'll put up a couple pics once they send em to me :)
it was actually the 2nd day of wat was the most awesome weekend this entire quarter :D after 1 week of hell (3 difficult midterms, timed for maximum suffering), i ditched class on friday (along with half the class. we are NOT getting beat over the head for a 3rd time with all the "cultural competency" bs). so anyways, other than my sleeping in and enjoying every second of not studying, it was pretty hectic to get things ready... i just bought my ticket, dress, and (fake) jewelry the day before. and then today, the girl who was gonna do my hair and make-up got stuck in traffic coming back to sf, and couldn't make it in time! so i ended up doing my own attempt at make-up D: it actually turned out better than expected. turns out im not that bad at using the liquid eyeliner, especially since it was my first time trying it by myself!! bleh, im sooo used to getting babied by yen, hahaha.
i went over to linda's apt to pre-party at around 9. shirley curled my hair once again, and then i was all ready to go :) but!! the point of a pre-party.... is to drink. hahahahaha. so yeah, i had my first shot!!! not like the jello shot that i had last quarter (which was part of the batch where cheryl kinda messed up the recipe and made all jello and no shot lol). this was a real shot!!! so yeah, we all got in a circle and clinked our shot glasses, and yes i did get pictures :) i took it in one gulp, and suddenly my throat was on fire XD iono wat the hell ann put in that thing!! like it was pure alcohol, hahahaha. everybody started cracking up cuz i started sputtering and was like "O my GOD!!!" but they had predicted that and had an open dr. pepper waiting for me, hahaha. (yes, i caved in to peer pressure! im horrible!! hahaha. but we're all girls, so it's all in good fun) :D
so then after that, we all headed over to the party at like 10. they had the most awesome desserts EVAR o_o; they had a FOUNTAIN OF CHOCOLATE. it was a chocolate fondue, so they had all these good desserts and fruits to dip into the fountain. sooooo nice. hahaha. so yeah we pigged out for a little while. and then they also had a bar there, and my friends bought me a cocktail XD it was like orange juice... only with alcohol. hahahaha~ it was kinda funny, cuz they kept apologizing to me like "aaaah, sorry verena, we don't mean to corrupt you!!!" lol. but apparantly, i have good tolerance. i knew this italian blood would come in handy someday!! hehe
so!! after dessert and drinks... they got me onto the dance floor :P normally, i never EVER dance. but when your friends are hilariously drunk, and they're doing all sorts of crazy moves, it makes things easier :) plus, most of our "dancing" was just messing around to look funny anyway~
we finally headed back to linda's at 1am, for our after-party... which consisted of crashing in her room, finally taking off our heels, lying around and drinking water, and talking about the most randomest stuff in the world :D so i finally got back to my own apt at like 1:30 :)
so, what did i do today?: SLEEP ALL DAY!!!!! :D and of course, watch tons of tv. mmmmmm, lazy is goooooood~ hahaha | | |
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